Why I Gossiped and What I Now Do Instead

“Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss people.” ~Eleanor Roosevelt

I stopped gossiping when life humbled me. I didn’t realize at the time, but what I thought was just innocent girl talk with my friends was really a way to escape my own shame and insecurity.

I had this quiet, ongoing sense that I wasn’t measuring up personally or emotionally. Gossiping about someone else gave me a fleeting escape, since it allowed me to shift my focus to someone else’s behavior. Every time I did it, I felt a sense of guilt and shame after, but I never thought too much about it.

It wasn’t until the morning I was abruptly terminated from a career of two decades, leaving me angry, sad, disappointed, and feeling extremely worthless, that I started to look at “innocent gossip” much differently.

I spent the first few weeks, actually months, crying a lot. I struggled to find my place in a world where my job not only paid the bills, but it also gave me structure in a crazy world.

I remember sitting on my couch, feeling like a vulnerable, exposed child, when I discovered that my friends, the people who I thought were my support network, were casually discussing my recent hardship like it was the weather.

I felt exposed and betrayed but determined to persevere.

In that moment, I realized gossip was a way to momentarily control a narrative when my own life felt out of control. I turned to it when I was scared orx felt small, but it was just a mirage, leaving me feeling even more empty each time.

In my own isolation, I noticed a friend who always seemed to spiral into negativity, turning every conversation into a complaint, always talking about others. And that made me wonder, if she was so free to gossip about them, what was she saying about me when I wasn’t there? But I had done the same thing to her.

Something shifted when she finally admitted she was exhausted and at her wits’ end. In that moment, I realized I had often filled in the blanks with judgment instead of curiosity. It was easier for me to gossip about her, to stay in the shallow comfort of speculation, rather than ask her how she truly was or just sit with her in silence.

What I had labeled as dismissiveness suddenly looked more like survival, and I couldn’t help but feel I wasn’t the friend I wanted to be.

Now that I’ve been on the other side, I understand how quickly words can wound. I promised myself at that very moment that when I speak, it will be with empathy and care, knowing how deeply words can hurt.

I have no problem telling people I no longer gossip, and I know it has pushed some friends away. And I am okay with that because I am no longer bound by those old patterns.

My own battle stripped away the need to judge, speculate, or speak casually about others. When you’ve been brought to your own knees by loss, illness, or fear, you begin to understand how fragile a human heart truly is and how heavy careless words can land on someone who is already drowning.

Compassion, I learned, is not a moral high ground; it is wisdom earned through pain.

When my life was slowly unraveling, I started to learn what it felt like to move through the world misunderstood, judged by appearances while privately struggling to stay afloat. While I was drowning, every whispered comment, every casual judgment felt like a weight dragging me to the bottom of the sea.

It was in that very personal space that gossip stopped feeling harmless. It began to feel irresponsible and careless, speaking about wounds without knowing how deep they go.

Slowly, I began to see how much wasted energy gossip demanded and how little it gave in return.

Outgrowing gossip wasn’t about being better than anyone else; it was about being the best version of myself. It became about protecting my own heart and choosing empathy over mindless, idle words.

My healing required space, silence, and the courage to speak only what nurtures rather than harms. My own pain taught me that every person is carrying a story heavy enough without my judgment adding weight.

Choosing silence and compassion changed the way I moved through the world.

Just last week, I caught myself about to join a familiar conversation, but I quickly stopped myself. In that pause, I realized how much freer I could be, no longer weighed down by old habits. I listened more, judged less, and found joy in connecting with people rather than dissecting them. My energy is no longer drained by the toxic weight of gossip, and my heart feels lighter, more open, and more at peace.

Gossip only kept me small, but now I choose to grow beyond it, giving my time to what truly nourishes the heart: kindness, connection, and understanding.

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Lisa Ingrassia is a former HuffPost blogger and Belief Net writer. She is a monthly contributor for Family Christian with work has also appearing in Her View from Home and The Mighty. She is currently working on her memoir, After the Amen, and shares reflections on life, grief, and love through her social media page, A Daughter’s Love. When she’s not writing, Lisa is a devoted wife and obsessed with her puppy, Nitro.

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What Happens When the Strong Friend Finally Asks for Help?

“We don’t build trust by offering help. We build trust by asking for it.” ~Simon Sinek

I have always been the strong sister, partner, and friend.

I didn’t make a conscious decision one day to be the strong one and stuck to it. It became who it was from a very young age, being the firstborn daughter. I was used to carrying a larger load than my siblings. Being the strong and responsible one was rewarded by my parents, and it’s what kept people close.

I am the friend you call when you can’t think straight. I am the friend who celebrates your wins. The therapy friend. The inspiration friend. The one who will sit with you for six hours, pour everything she has into that conversation, and then go home and need three days of silence to fill herself back up. And then I’ll send you a text to check in. Because that’s what I do.

I’ve never sat and thought about whether I am a good friend or what it is I want out of my friendships.

The Question Nobody Was Asking…

Simon Sinek has an exercise he calls the Friends Exercise. He suggests calling your closest friends and asking them one simple question: Why are you my friend?

Simon says the first answers you’ll get may be surface things like you’re loyal, fun, and a good listener. But you’re looking for answers with more depth. What you’re really listening for, Sinek explains, is what comes after, when your friend stops describing you and starts describing how they feel when they’re around you. That shift is where your real impact lives.

So I called. I texted. All four of my closest friends.

Here is what came back: great friend, always ready to listen, heart of gold, someone to bounce ideas off of, understanding, fun, spunky, authentic, inspiring, motivating. I love the positive things my friends mentioned. I had a sense of pride hearing it.

And then, almost immediately, I felt something else.

Why aren’t any of my friendships emotional?

I started to reflect on how vulnerable I am with my close friends. Do I feel comfortable asking for help? How vulnerable could my friends be with me? Do they feel comfortable asking me for help? The feedback from my friends was beautiful, but I wondered what else they thought about me. So I reflected on the question of how my friends showed up for me as well.

That was information I wasn’t ready for.

The Pattern Hiding Behind the Strength

Here’s what I know about myself now that I didn’t have words for then.

Outside of anger and frustration, I don’t bring my emotions into my friendships. Not really. When something hard comes up, we smooth it over fast. We tap straight into problem-solving mode. We say it’s going to be alright before the other person has even finished their sentence.

My friendships looked a lot like my romantic relationships had. We were all, in our own ways, emotionally unavailable. Or at least I was. And I had built a circle that matched that frequency without realizing it.

After reading a book on friendship recently, I realized I was delaying platonic intimacy rather than building it. I was the person who always shows up, always has the answer, always holds the space, but I wasn’t creating closeness. I created a role. And a role is not the same thing as a relationship.

My friendships started to orbit around who I am and what I provide. I wasn’t vulnerable, showing the frustrated, angry, or sad side to some of my friends, even though we have years of friendship under our belts. I was consistently showing up and performing a role. That distinction landed in me slowly, then all at once.

Where It Actually Came From

I was the girl who didn’t have friends growing up. Not in the way other girls seemed to. Not the sleepovers, trips to the mall, and the person who was always someone’s person. I spent a lot of time alone during my youth. So I learned early to be self-sufficient about connection. To not need too much. To be valuable enough to keep around without requiring maintenance.

This is why I believe emotional bonding never came naturally to me. It felt foreign. Like a language I understood intellectually but had never actually spoken out loud.

By the time I was an adult, I had become someone people leaned on. Someone who gave freely and received carefully. And I told myself that was just who I was, that not everyone needs to be emotionally open to have good friendships.

I also made a conscious choice, somewhere in there, that I didn’t want a solo best friend. One person who was my everything felt like too much weight in both directions. I didn’t want to carry it. I didn’t want someone carrying it for me.

What I didn’t see was how that decision was quietly shaping everything else. The help I never asked for. The vulnerability I kept just out of reach. The version of me that only arrived once I’d cleaned myself up a little.

What the Audit Revealed

As I thought about what actually creates closeness in friendship, three things stood out to me: support, symmetry, and trust. Support is being there for each other when life gets messy. Symmetry is the sense that the relationship flows both ways—not just one person giving and the other receiving. And trust is the quiet understanding that some conversations live safely between you.

I had the support piece. I had the secrecy piece. Symmetry was the one I’d been quietly avoiding. Because real symmetry means you also need things. You have to let yourself be the one who calls at 2 a.m. instead of only being the one who answers. You have to bring your actual, unpolished life into the friendship—not just the version of you that already has it figured out.

Two of my closest friends are local. Two live further away. Across all four, the feedback was the same: I am inspiring. I am motivating. I am safe to come to.

What wasn’t in any of that? A single moment where I showed up needing something.

That was data, too.

The Thing About Asking

Simon Sinek said something that stopped me cold.

“We don’t build trust by offering help. We build trust by asking for it.”

I had it completely backward. I thought that being the strong friend—the one who never needed anything—was what made me trustworthy. What made me worth keeping? What made the friendship real?

But what Sinek is pointing at is something deeper. When you never ask for help, you deny the people who love you the honor of showing up for you. You make the relationship one-directional without meaning to. And one-directional relationships, no matter how loving, eventually create distance.

Asking for help is not a weakness. It is not a burden. It is, in fact, one of the most intimate things you can offer someone—the trust that they can hold you too.

What Changed for Me

I started small.

Instead of “How are you?” I started asking my friends, “How are you feeling emotionally?” Specific, intentional, a little clunky at first. Our friendships had always lived on the bright side of things. Naming the emotional layer out loud felt strange for all of us.

But I kept doing it. And I started letting myself say when things weren’t good for me. When I felt low. When I was struggling. Not as performance, not as an overshare—but as an act of leading by example. The more vulnerable I was willing to be, the safer it became for them to be vulnerable too.

It worked. Slowly, in the small ways that real things shift.

My friend of over twenty years told me recently, quietly, in the middle of an ordinary conversation, that I am too hard on myself. I acknowledged it. I said I needed to show myself more grace.

It was a short moment. It wasn’t dramatic. But I sat with it for days.

Because it meant she was paying attention. It meant she was finally saying the thing instead of smoothing it over. It meant we were, after all this time, finally choosing each other instead of the easier, smoother version of the friendship.

Now It’s Your Turn…

If you are the strong friend, the therapy friend, the one everyone leans on, this is for you.

Try the Simon Sinek exercise. Call the people who matter most and ask them why they’re your friend. Then sit with what the feedback tells you—and what it doesn’t.

Notice whether your strength has quietly become a wall. Notice whether the people around you know the parts of you that are still being put together. Notice whether you’ve ever let someone carry something for you.

Asking for help is not the end of being strong. It might actually be where your strength finally gets to rest.

And the friendships that can hold that? Those are the ones worth building.

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Siedah Johnson is a writer and the author of I Am Love: Learn to Love Yourself and Tap Into Your Power. Through her publication, The Author's Alchemy, she writes about self-love, healing generational patterns, and the relationships we build with ourselves and others.

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What Happened to My Body When I Suppressed My Emotions

“Our bodies communicate to us clearly and specifically, if we are willing to listen.” ~Shakti Gawain

As a child, I was never taught to regulate my emotions. I learned instead to override them—pushing through stress, swallowing tears, and even hiding a cast at dinner, afraid that showing what had happened to me would create anger instead of care.

By the time I was a teenager, I turned to drugs and alcohol to manage my emotions. It was easier to feel nothing at all than to be bombarded by emotions I had no clue what to do with.

This turned into a ten-year drug addiction until I finally found sobriety after hitting rock bottom and realizing I needed help. I’d been cut off by my family, had resorted to sex work for cash, and had been living in my car and couch surfing for months when I finally realized I couldn’t keep living this way and needed to start facing the emotions and trauma to move forward.

But, when I got sober, the emotions came back stronger and deeper, especially with a decade’s worth of poor decisions piled on top of unprocessed childhood trauma. I felt intense anxiety along with shame and guilt about what I had done to my body, what I had done for money, and what I had allowed others to do to me.

With the emotions also came a laundry list of health problems, including severe PMS and gut issues.

I felt out of control of my body and saw doctor after doctor without getting any answers—only medications to ease my symptoms. I had just learned to live without substances, and I didn’t want to start adding them back in, even if they did come from a doctor this time.

At first, I figured the physical and emotional problems were separate from each other. I mean, how could both be related? But, as I made my way from doctor to doctor with little to no relief from any of my problems, I began doing my own research and testing out alternative ways to find healing and not resort back to living on the streets addicted to heroin.

It didn’t take long for me to realize my body and my emotions weren’t separate at all. Suppressing or ignoring feelings had left my nervous system on high alert, my hormones in chaos, and my gut in rebellion. Every mood swing, every bout of fatigue, every digestive upset was my body speaking—loudly—because I hadn’t learned to listen.

It wasn’t a supplement, a therapist, or a new diet that finally started to shift things—it was actually sitting with the feelings I had spent decades running from.

The first time I let myself really feel the anger, the grief, and even the shame I’d buried, my body trembled like it had been holding its breath for years. I can still remember doing a hip-opening yoga class and just breaking down crying halfway through. My body finally felt safe enough to let some of what had been buried go.

I was finally facing all my feelings around the abuse I’d experienced, the decision to enter sex work to make money for drugs, and my choices and their consequences—including stealing from family and ruining relationships.

As I stayed with these feelings, I finally saw the sexual and emotional abuse that occurred when I was a child and connected the dots from this early abuse to the abuse I continued to allow into my life.

My hormones didn’t magically settle overnight, and my gut didn’t suddenly stop protesting, but for the first time, I wasn’t fighting against myself. I was listening.

I learned that my physical symptoms were never separate from my emotional ones. Every headache, every sleepless night, every PMS mood swing was a message. And every time I tried to “push through” instead of feeling, the message only got louder.

Over time, I started small: letting myself cry without guilt and finally saying no to the things and people that drained me. For example, I realized I no longer wanted to continue with the successful marketing business I’d built because it forced me to cater to people that I didn’t even want to sit in the same room with. I was no longer willing to stay quiet or tolerate what didn’t feel right just to keep the peace.

I also started journaling to process messy thoughts that went all the way back to childhood—thoughts around not being good enough, being too weird and too out there, and feeling the need to hide my true self to fit in and get along with people.

It was terrifying at first—I felt untethered, exposed, and completely vulnerable—but slowly, my body began to relax. My mood swings softened, my gut started to settle, and I felt like I was finally inhabiting my own life instead of running from it.

I realized that the very thing I had feared—my emotions—were actually the key to my healing. Feeling wasn’t weakness. It was information. A compass pointing me toward balance, alignment, and what I now recognize as my dharma (soul’s purpose).

In Ayurveda, we talk about honoring the body’s natural rhythms—the cycles of energy, the shifts of vata, pitta, and kapha—and listening to what your body truly needs in each moment. Suppressing your emotions is like trying to swim upstream against your own current: it disrupts your flow, creates imbalance, and can make your hormones and digestion rebel.

When I allowed myself to feel, to honor my inner shifts, and to create daily rituals that supported my natural rhythms—warm nourishing meals, gentle movement, quiet reflection, and early nights—my nervous system slowly began to settle. My hormones became steadier, my gut calmer, and I finally felt like I was living in alignment with my own life instead of constantly battling it.

Suppressing your emotions may feel safer in the short term, but in the long run, your body will make itself heard. Listening, feeling, and honoring yourself—that is where true healing lives. Your body is speaking. Will you answer?

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Rebecca Ryan DeLia holds a BS in Alternative Medicine and an MS in Ayurvedic & Integrative Health and is an RYT500 yoga teacher. She helps women rebuild their gut and hormones, regulate their nervous system, and reconnect with their bodies—all without fear-based restriction or supplement stacking. Visit her at hormone-support.com.

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Anxiety Sucks, But It Taught Me These 7 Important Things

“Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom.” ~Soren Kierkegaard

Let’s be clear:

This isn’t an article about positive thinking.

This isn’t an article about how silver linings make everything okay.

This isn’t an article about how your perspective on anxiety is all wrong.

The kids call those things “toxic positivity.”

No toxic positivity here.

This is an article about my lifelong relationship with anxiety and what I’ve learned from something that won’t go away. At times the anxiety spikes and feels almost crippling. I have a hard time appreciating the learning at those times, but it’s still there.

That is what this article is all about.

Please do not confuse me learning things from something that won’t go away with me endorsing that thing or saying it’s a good thing. I would trade everything I’ve learned from anxiety for less anxiety. I don’t even like writing about it because focusing on it this much gives me anxiety. But I want to write things that help people.

How a Bare Butt Sparked My Anxiety

Stranger Things has shown how cool the eighties were. For the most part, this is true. I miss arcades and the music. I miss the freedom I had as a kid that I don’t see kids having these days. I miss some of the fashion. I don’t miss people not knowing anything about mental health.

We used to play football every day after school at a baseball field/park in our little town. This was unsupervised tackle football with kids a lot older than me.

I remember one time a guy broke his finger. It was pointing back at him at a ninety-degree angle. He took off sprinting toward his house. One of the older kids said, “He’s running home to Mommy!” and we all went back to playing.

Oddly enough, possibly breaking my finger didn’t worry me. What did worry me was one day when a kid was running for a touchdown, and another kid dove to stop him. He only caught the top of his pants, pulling them down and exposing his bare butt. He made the touchdown anyway, but while everyone else thought it was hilarious, it scared me to death.

What if that happens to me?

I started tying my pants up with a string every day, pulling it tight enough to make my stomach hurt (remember, this was the eighties—I was wearing those neon-colored pajama-pant-looking things). I started to feel sick before we played football, before school, and before everything.

You would think it was obvious that I was dealing with anxiety, but you have to remember that in the eighties and nineties, we did not talk about mental health like we do now. We didn’t throw around terms like anxiety and depression. I was just the weird kid that threw up before he went to school.

The anxiety has gotten a little more noticeable over the past few years. It seems to have gotten worse since having COVID in 2020 and 2021. I don’t know if that’s a thing, but it feels like it is. It has forced me to deal with it mindfully and with more intention. It’s never pleasant, but I’ve learned a few things.

1. Anxiety has taught me to be present.

The crushing presence of high anxiety forces me to be exactly where I am at that moment. I’m not able to read or write. I cannot play a video game or watch a movie with any kind of enjoyment. There’s nothing I can do.

This roots me in the moment in a very intense, authentic way. That might seem bad since I’m anxious, but there’s another layer to it. When I can be completely present with the physiological sensations of anxiety, I recognize that they are energy in the body. When I’m super present, I can see how my mind is turning those sensations into the emotion we call anxiety, and that’s where my suffering comes from.

2. Anxiety has taught me about control.

I’ve been told that my hyper-independence and need to be prepared for anything is a trauma response. I was a therapist for ten years, and I still don’t know what to do with this information. I do know that anxiety gives me a crash course in what I can control and what I cannot control.

The bad news is that I can’t control any of the things that I think are creating anxiety. The good news is that I can control my response to all those things. Anxiety forces me to do this in a very intentional way.

Anxiety also puts my mind firmly on something bigger than myself. Maybe it’s that higher power we hear about in AA meetings and on award shows. It’s good for me to get outside my head and remember that I’m not in charge of anything. It’s helpful to only box within my weight class.

3. Anxiety teaches me to have good habits and boundaries.

I’m bad about allowing my habits and boundaries to slip when times are good. I start eating poorly, I stop exercising, I stay up too late, and I watch a bunch of shows and movies that beam darkness and distraction directly into my head.

I also start to allow unhealthy and even toxic people to have a more prominent role in my life. This is all under the guise of helping them because people reach out to me a lot. Over the years, I’ve learned I have to limit how close I let the most toxic people get to me, no matter how much help they need.

When I’m feeling good, I start thinking I can handle anything, and my boundaries slip. Anxiety is always a reminder that the unhealthiness in my life has consequences, and I clean house when it spikes.

4. Anxiety reminds me how important growth is.

Once I clean house, I start looking at new projects and things I can do to feel better. I start taking the next step in who I want to be. This has been difficult over the past three years because the waves of anxiety have been so intense, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel as the good habits I put in place and the new projects and things I started are beginning to come to fruition.

I chose to let my counseling license go inactive and focus on life coaching because it’s less stressful, and I’m better at it. This would not have happened without anxiety. I have changed my diet and exercise in response to blood pressure and anxiety, and these are good habits to have whether I am anxious or not.

5. Anxiety taught me to be gentle.

I’ve written and spoken a lot about my desire to be gentler with people. I’m not unkind, and I have a lot of compassion for people, but this is often expressed gruffly or too directly. It’s how I was raised, and I often feel like I am patronizing people if I walk in verbal circles when I’m trying to help them with something.

When I’m experiencing high anxiety I feel fragile, which helps me understand how other people might feel in the face of my bluntness. I started working on being gentler around 2018, and I was disappointed in my progress.

It was also around that year that anxiety began to become a fixture in my life again. As I look back now, I can recognize that I am a lot gentler with everyone around me when I’m anxious. Being a little fragile helps me treat everybody else with a little more care.

6. Anxiety taught me to slow down and ask for help.

When I started experiencing increased anxiety, it led me to make quick decisions and change things to try to deal with it. This makes sense. Evolutionarily, anxiety is meant to prompt us to action.

The problem was that these decisions rarely turned out to be my best ones and often led to other consequences I had to deal with down the line. Because of this, I’ve learned that an anxiety spike is not the time to make big decisions.

If I have to make a decision about something, I slow down and try to be very intentional about it. I’ve also learned I need to talk it out with somebody else, something I’ve never been inclined to do. Asking for help is a good thing.

7. Anxiety helps me speed up.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, this is the opposite of what I just said.

Let me clarify.

One of the most important quotes I’ve ever read came from the folk singer Joan Baez: “Action is the antidote to anxiety.” (Years later, I learned she might have said despair instead of anxiety, but I heard it the first way).

Some tasks bring anxiety that I do not want to deal with. These usually involve phone calls or emails to bureaucratic organizations or errands that I find unpleasant and anxiety-inducing (avoiding these also makes sense—our evolutionary legacy cannot understand why we would do something that may feel dangerous).

Over the years, I’ve learned that anxiety diminishes if I take the steps I need to take to address these tasks. The cool thing is that this has translated over to many of my day-to-day tasks.

By acting in the face of anxiety, I’ve gotten pretty good about doing things when they need to be done. I mow the lawn when it needs to be mowed, take out the trash when it needs to be taken out, put the laundry up when it needs to be put up, and get the oil changed in my truck when it needs to be changed.

Once we start addressing tasks immediately, it becomes a habit. Anxiety helped me do this.

Anxiety Still Sucks

So there you go. Seven things anxiety has taught me. I’m grateful for these lessons, but they don’t make anxiety any less difficult in the moment.

Anxiety is meant to suck. It’s meant to make things difficult and uncomfortable for us until we do something to address the problem. The problem, unfortunately, is often unaddressable these days.

We worry about things like losing our job, not having enough money, divorce, and the general state of the world. Anxiety did not develop to address any of these things, so sometimes being comfortable with discomfort is the best we can offer ourselves.

Maybe that’s the last thing anxiety is teaching me.

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James is a writer who wants to help people overcome challenges and make important changes in their lives. He has worked for over twenty years as a social worker, meditation teacher, and licensed professional counselor. Having found his home in life coaching, he helps others achieve their goals and create the life they want. As a writer, James shares helpful posts on Substack, writing thousands of words each month to inspire, challenge, and motivate his subscribers.

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Why I Let My Kids See My Sadness Now (After Hiding It for Years)

“I will not teach or love or show you anything perfectly, but I will let you see me, and I will always hold sacred the gift of seeing you—truly, deeply, seeing you.” ~Brené Brown

The first time my kids saw me truly cry was Christmas of 2021. My oldest was sixteen, and my youngest was twelve.

They had just opened their presents. It should have been a warm, joyful morning. Instead, I turned away toward the foyer near the entry of the house, my back to them, as tears threatened to spill over. My mom—whose emotional chaos had disrupted a large part of my life—was in a psychiatric hospital again. Her mental health had unraveled once more, and the grief of it all, the repetition, the helplessness, finally caught up with me.

I had spent years trying to keep my pain out of sight. I thought I could hide it again. But this time, I couldn’t.

Both of my children asked, “Are you okay?”

I whispered, “I’m fine,” even as the tears streamed down.

Then something unexpected happened. They both came toward me and wrapped me in a hug. No fear. No confusion. Just love. Pure and steady.

That moment began to unravel something in me. What met me was tenderness. My children were not overwhelmed by my sadness. They simply responded to it. In that moment, something old began to crack: the belief that my pain was dangerous to the people I loved most.

I had spent so long trying not to become like my mom. I always felt responsible for her feelings and well-being, and I never wanted my own children to feel burdened the way I had. But in trying so hard not to repeat the past, I held my emotional interior very guarded when I was sad.

I thought I was protecting them.

What I didn’t understand then was that my children did not need protection from my humanity. They needed some connection to it.

In late 2023, my younger child made an observation that showed me my hiding wasn’t really working.

“You’re the sad one,” he said, “and Dad is the mad one.”

The truth stung, but I knew he wasn’t being cruel. He was simply saying what he saw.

And he wasn’t wrong.

After that Christmas, I had gone back to holding everything in and trying not to let too much of my sadness show. But even without tears, my son had still been seeing my sadness for years—through what was happening with my mom, through losses I had carried quietly, through burdens I thought I was keeping to myself.

Of course he sensed it. Maybe it was in my demeanor or my energy, in the heaviness on my face, in the way I sometimes stared off blankly, or in the moments when he had to call my name several times before I came back. He often asked, “Are you okay, Mommy?” He knew something was there.

That was the moment I realized there was no point in hiding my inner world if my children could already feel it without words.

Kids are incredibly intuitive. Even when they don’t have the language, they can feel what is happening. They pick up on tension, sadness, distance, and strain long before anyone explains it. When we pretend everything is fine, they still feel that something is off.

What I began to understand is that without context, they were left to make meaning out of what they felt. They could assume my sadness had something to do with them, or that it was something they needed to fix.

But when I began giving them enough truth—without trauma dumping, without making them carry what was mine—they were better able not to personalize what they were sensing. They could understand that I had feelings, that those feelings were real and human, and that those feelings were not their fault.

I also began to see something else more clearly: my children had always seen me as strong, independent, and capable, the one who managed things and handled what needed to be handled. Because I did not let them see what I perceived as weak, I never really gave them the chance to know this too: I have feelings. My feelings matter too. Not just theirs.

As I began sharing more of my interior world in age-appropriate ways, my children became more thoughtful and considerate. Not because they were responsible for me, but because they could understand me more fully.

What hit me hardest was realizing that the very thing I had felt as a child—being unseen—was something I was repeating with my own kids without even knowing it. Not in the same form, but in a similar emotional pattern.

How could they really see me if I never let them know anything about what was happening inside me? How could we have true connection if I only let them relate to my strength, competence, and composure while hiding the deeper parts of my inner world?

By 2026, something had begun to change, but not quickly and not by accident. It came after years of therapy, reflection, and slowly learning how often I still suppressed what I felt—pushing it down, swallowing hard, going into my bedroom to hide it, trying to regain composure before anyone saw. Little by little, I stopped doing that as much. I cried more freely. I let more be seen.

My youngest son, who is autistic and deeply bonded to me, at first didn’t know what to do when I began letting my tears show more often. A few months ago, while I was crying, he said, “I want to make you feel better, but I don’t know how.”

I told him, “You don’t have to fix anything. Just let me be me, and I’ll let you be you. That’s the best gift we can give each other.”

After that, I sensed his awkwardness begin to soften into acceptance.

A little later, as we were landing in Houston after a trip to Canada, tears started falling again. I didn’t want to come back. That place no longer feels like home to me. Without saying a word, my son wrapped his arms around me and held me while I cried.

After a few minutes, I exhaled and said, “Thank you. I feel better now.”

But it was the moment in the car that stayed with me most.

About a month later, I was crying again while we were driving. A song came on the radio that reminded me of someone I missed, and the sadness rose up fast. He was sitting next to me, and I said, “I’m okay, honey. The song just reminds me of someone and makes me sad. I just need to get it out, and then I’ll be okay.”

Even then, I still felt self-conscious. Some part of me still worried he might be judging me.

Instead, he said something that completely stunned me.

“I wish I could cry like that,” he said. “You’re strong.”

I laughed a little and said, “I get it, honey. We’ll get you crying again eventually.”

I meant it tenderly, but I also realized in that moment that he had learned some of the same lessons so many boys learn early—that tears get pushed down, that feelings get stuck, that crying becomes something to resist. And I knew he had learned some of that from what both his dad and I had modeled. It would take time to unlearn.

That moment stayed with me because it showed me how differently he was seeing my tears than I had always seen them myself.

For so much of my life, I had equated crying with weakness. I thought being strong meant holding everything in, staying composed, pushing through, and keeping the hard parts hidden. But through my son’s eyes, I saw something different. He did not see my tears as failure. He saw courage in them.

That moment opened up another conversation between us. He told me he could not cry anymore. He said it always felt stuck in his throat. He could feel it, but it would not come out. He told me the last time he had really cried was when he was thirteen.

I thought then about how much energy so many of us spend trying not to feel what is already there.

For years, I thought being a good parent meant being unshakable. I thought strength meant keeping my children from seeing my grief, my overwhelm, my tenderness, and my breaking points.

Now I think children need honesty more than performance. They need to know that hard feelings can be felt without becoming dangerous, that sadness can move through a room without becoming their responsibility, and that love does not disappear when life gets hard.

I used to think my tears would make my children feel less safe.

What I know now is that when those tears are held with honesty and care, they can teach something powerful: that being fully human is not weakness, and connection often deepens the moment we stop pretending we have nothing to feel.

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Allison Jeanette Briggs is a therapist, writer, and speaker specializing in helping women heal from codependency, childhood trauma, and emotional neglect. She blends psychological insight with spiritual depth to guide clients and readers toward self-trust, boundaries, and authentic connection. Allison is the author of the upcoming memoir On Being Real: Healing the Codependent Heart of a Woman and shares reflections on healing, resilience, and inner freedom at on-being-real.com.

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All the Important Things a Scale Can’t Measure

“She remembered who she was, and the game changed.” ~Lalah Delia

The scale. Those dreaded words and those dreaded numbers. It can strike fear in the heart of any generally happy human. We look at guidelines and BMI charts and always think, “It should be lower.”

Have you ever been having a perfectly good day and suddenly think, “Maybe I should weigh myself?” And just like that, your day is ruined.

How do we let a $20 bathroom scale dictate how we feel about ourselves?

I remember stepping on the scale and seeing numbers that somehow determined how I valued myself. What a ridiculous way to measure our worth. Yet so many of us do it. Somewhere along the way we start believing that if we weigh less, we somehow are more.

I grew up in the 1990s, and I remember being told that I should weigh 120 pounds. Thank you, Seventeen Magazine and the fashion industry. Granted, I’m not tall. But that number became something I chased for years. I weighed myself religiously every day. I didn’t care if I had energy or if I felt good. What mattered was the number on the scale. If I could just reach that elusive number, all would be right with the world.

All around me, the message was the same: do more, eat less, weigh less. If I could just reach that number, somehow, I would become the most worthy version of myself.

People would complement the weight loss, not realizing that I was often starving and exhausted. I felt terrible, but the number on the scale was good. It never made sense.

Around that time, I had taken up running after the loss of my grandmother. The endorphins gave me a positive way to deal with grief. Running helped me process the pain. But then, as good things often do, it became something negative.

I also realized something else—it made me smaller.

For whatever reason, that made me feel better about myself. So for many years, I learned that if I ran enough and ate little enough, I could stay small. I remember being told in my early twenties that my body fat was too low. At the time, I wore that like a badge of honor. Looking back now, it seems a little ridiculous.

Life, of course, has a way of changing things. After four pregnancies, the number on the scale became harder to control. Each time my weight crept up, I would return to running to try to bring the number back down. After each pregnancy it became harder.

Even when I added strength training, it wasn’t about building strength. It was about burning more calories. Everything revolved around pleasing the number on the scale. If I had to do jumping jacks in between every exercise to burn more calories, I did it. I never considered if I was getting stronger. To be honest, it didn’t matter.

Then something unexpected happened.

After a fall from my horse injured my ankle—and my pride—I wasn’t able to run the way I used to. Instead, I started strength training from a different place. I wasn’t training to burn calories. I was training to be strong. If I couldn’t run, I still needed to be able to move well.

I wanted to lift things. Move things. Feel capable in my body.

And then something strange started happening. People began telling me I looked like I had lost weight.

But when I stepped on the scale, the number hadn’t gone down. In fact, it had gone up.

I remember thinking, “That’s odd… my scale says this, but my old jeans fit again.”

Slowly, it dawned on me.

Maybe the scale wasn’t telling the whole story.

For years I believed the scale told the truth about my health. What I eventually realized is that it was only telling me how much gravity was pulling on my body that morning. It couldn’t measure strength. It couldn’t measure muscle. It couldn’t measure how capable my body had become.

As a nurse practitioner, I do still weigh patients in my clinical practice. Weight trends can matter in certain situations, and sometimes it helps guide medical decisions. It can impact your health, and my job is to make you healthier.

But that number was never meant to determine whether someone should have a good day.

It doesn’t measure resilience.

It doesn’t measure energy.

It doesn’t measure confidence or strength.

What frustrates me most is realizing that the same narrative I grew up with is still alive and well. I see it in my adolescent patients. I see it in the media my children are exposed to.

Boys are often encouraged to become stronger and more capable. A higher number on the scale is even to be celebrated if it means they are building muscle.

Girls often hear a different message. Smaller is better. I work daily to change that narrative. I want my daughters and all girls to know that stronger is better.

I try to remind them of something I wish I had understood earlier: our bodies are meant to be strong, healthy, and capable. Strength is something we build, not something we shrink ourselves into.

I remember when that little bathroom scale could determine what kind of day I was going to have. The number could jump up five pounds overnight from hormones or water retention, even if I had done everything “right” the day before.

Now I see it differently.

If I’m going to focus on a number, I’d rather focus on the amount of weight I can lift.

The number on my deadlift. The number on my squat. The number on my bench press.

Those numbers tell a much more meaningful story. They represent effort, consistency, and progress that actually reflect the work being done.

And maybe the day we stop letting the scale decide our worth is the day we finally start appreciating what our bodies are truly capable of. I think it’s time.

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Shannon McDonald is a Nurse Practitioner and holistic nutrition coach who helps midlife women restore energy and build strength through her "Strong + Steady" methodology. With over 20 years of nursing experience, she guides women to work with their bodies through protein optimization and progressive strength training rather than restrictive dieting. Shannon integrates clinical expertise with faith-based wellness principles from her Nebraska homestead, where she trades scrubs for muck boots between working and client sessions. Visit her at navigatingtowellness.com.

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From People-Pleasing to Self-Trust: How to Come Back to Yourself

“The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are.” ~Carl Jung

Where did I want to go out to eat?

The question was straightforward, and the answer should have been easy. But as my mind flipped through the options, my thoughts weren’t focused on what I wanted. Instead, I was preoccupied with making the right choice, the one least likely to cause tension.

Yes, my partner had asked where I wanted to go. But over time, I learned that answering honestly often came with consequences. My choice might be questioned, dismissed, or turned into a debate. If I tried to stand my ground, I spent the rest of the evening on edge—hyper-aware of the service, the food, the noise, and even the temperature—waiting for something to go wrong.

More often than not, I avoided deciding altogether. Ironically, my indecision led to being told I was boring or had no opinion at all.

I hadn’t always been this way. Up to my early twenties, I was known as feisty and opinionated. I knew what I wanted and went after it with quiet determination. In fact, it was this confidence and strength that initially drew my partner to me when we met during freshman orientation in college and, not long into our marriage, became a source of tension.

Over time, frequent arguments, distorted facts, and the constant questioning of my judgment chipped away at my confidence. I became anxious and second-guessed myself constantly.

Keeping the peace in our household became my primary focus, and I went to great lengths to ensure that my partner’s needs were met.

With my awareness focused outward, I slowly lost touch with my inner guidance. My survival instincts kicked into high gear, and I became the quintessential people-pleaser.

This way of being spilled into my professional life. I believed everyone was smarter, more capable, and better skilled than I was. Whether setting a strategy or executing a project, I overthought every action, wavered on each decision, and deferred to the person with the most authority.

In my personal life, my relationships became one-sided. Convinced I was rigid, quiet, and generally uninteresting, I slipped into the role of the easy, low-maintenance friend. I believed that if I expressed disagreement or had strong preferences, the relationship would fall apart.

Eventually, I extracted myself from my partner and moved back to my hometown. It was through reuniting with old friends that I clearly saw the person I had become. Having known me before my descent into survival mode, they were surprised by what they saw—my hesitation, my lack of opinions, the way I seemed to shrink from simple preferences.

Through their eyes, I remembered the person I used to be. And I recognized how far I had drifted from myself. Though painful, that realization gave me hope. If I had learned to constantly ask myself, “What will keep the peace?” perhaps I could learn to ask myself a different question instead: “What feels true for me right now?”

If you are feeling a dawning realization that the person you are now feels smaller than the person you once were, know this is not because you’re weak. It is because somewhere along the way, you learned that shrinking felt safer than standing firm. And if you are wondering what life could be like if you began to notice your preferences and voiced your opinion, read on.

Rebuilding Self-Trust

Use your body as a barometer. 

Asking yourself, “What feels true for me right now?” is a powerful question. However, I found myself so out of touch with my wants, needs, and desires that the answer often dissolved into a whirlpool of options and consequences.

In an effort to move beyond my confused mind, I turned my attention to my body. A tightness in my chest often meant I was about to agree to something that didn’t feel right. A wave of nausea signaled an emotional response that wasn’t aligned with my true feelings.

By practicing tuning into your body, you can begin to pause long enough to notice these physical signals. And they will become a quiet guide, helping you interrupt the automatic urge to override yourself.

Start with low-stakes decisions. 

With time and practice, I began using the physical sensations as guides to what I wanted. I was surprised to discover that I still had desires, needs, and opinions. They hadn’t disappeared—they had simply been buried.

But getting re-acquainted with myself was one thing. Using my voice to express what I discovered was another. Speaking up didn’t feel natural. It didn’t feel safe.

So I started slowly. I identified the people in my life who would be least likely to push back or dismiss my preferences. I also made sure I didn’t overwhelm my budding decision-making ability by burdening it with anything too heavy.

I chose a friend I’d known for twenty-five years as a starting point. Reaching out with a dinner invitation, I included the phrase “I’m really in the mood for Italian.” As my truth rolled off my tongue, I had to resist adding the caveat “but whatever you prefer.“

During dinner I paid close attention to my body and the impulses that surfaced, including the urge to ensure that the evening went smoothly, as if the efficiency of the service, the quality of the food, and even my friend’s experience rested on my shoulders.

As you begin this process, you may notice how strong your habitual hypervigilance can be. The weight of trying not to make the “wrong” decision can feel paralyzing, and the impulse to pull back may be almost overwhelming. But with each small, honest choice, that intensity begins to soften. What once felt dangerous starts to feel possible.

Practice disappointing others without abandoning yourself.

As I expanded into my rediscovered self-awareness, inevitably conflict arose and cooperation was required. I was pleased to discover that I could compromise what I wanted to allow someone else’s needs to be met without losing myself. In fact, the act of cooperation felt light and giving, which created a stark contrast to the heavy feeling that accompanied decisions that went against my best interests.

But even with a cooperative mindset, there were times when asserting my needs disappointed others.

I had attended a close friend’s destination wedding. The weekend was full of fun and laughter, and I enjoyed myself immensely. However, by the time Sunday evening rolled around, I was socially exhausted.

The plan was to go to dinner, but the idea of sitting in a noisy restaurant and holding conversations was mentally and emotionally taxing for me. I shared my truth with my friend, who immediately supported my request not to go to dinner.

In an emboldened state, I communicated my needs to the group that had gathered, preparing to leave. Most greeted the news with neutral emotion, but one person did not like my position and attempted to bully me into changing my mind. I did my best to express myself, but she remained on the attack, fixed in a place of personal offense.

This moment was difficult but presented an opportunity for me to dive further into self-knowing and trust. In that moment, I realized something important: someone else’s disappointment does not mean I have done something wrong. The discomfort I felt wasn’t a sign that I should abandon myself. It was simply the unfamiliar sensation of choosing myself.

Rebuilding self-trust isn’t about bold declarations or grand reinventions. It’s about quiet check-ins, small pauses, deliberate decisions, and allowing yourself to move through others’ disappointments and remaining in your place of truth. Self-trust is rebuilt in ordinary moments and seemingly inconsequential decisions.

If you feel out of touch with your wants and desires, know that this part of you is not gone. It is waiting for you to tune back in. Each time you do, you return a little closer to yourself. And that is how you move from responding from a place of fear to a place of self-trust.

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Lynn Crocker is passionate about helping people shift their inner dialogue and take charge of their thoughts to create a more purposeful, joyful, and fulfilling life—one thought at a time. If you’d like support carrying this mindset forward or guidance in cultivating steadier, more empowering inner dialogue, she invites you to schedule a free discovery call to see if mindset coaching is right for you. Learn more at lynncrockercoaching.com.

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Phone Down, Eyes Up: How to Really See the People We Love

“The most precious gift we can offer anyone is our attention.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh

Judy was three the first time I missed it. She had spent a solid ten minutes stacking every couch cushion on our living room floor in Vancouver, building what she clearly considered an Olympic-grade landing pad. She climbed up on the couch, stretched her arms out wide, and gave me that look. You know the one. The look kids give you right before they do something that makes your heart jump into your throat.

“Baba, watch!” she yelled.

My phone was in my hand. It was always in my hand. I was reading a Slack message or an email or maybe nothing at all, just the reflex of pulling down to refresh. I have no memory of what it was. Zero. Whatever it was dissolved completely about four minutes after I read it, because that’s what 90% of notifications actually are: things that feel urgent and then vanish.

“One sec, habibti,” I told her. My thumb kept scrolling.

She jumped. I heard cushions scatter across the hardwood floor. When I looked up, she was already gone, walking toward her room with a stuffed elephant dragging behind her by one ear.

I went right back to my phone.

That moment didn’t register as anything at the time. Kids jump off furniture, parents check their phones, nobody files it under “things I’ll regret.” But that was the beginning of a pattern I wouldn’t recognize for years, because the pattern was made of absence, and absences are nearly impossible to see while they’re forming.

Over the next two years, the requests kept coming. “Baba, look at this.” “Baba, come see.” “Baba, watch me.” Each one a little quieter than the last. Each one met by a version of me that was technically in the room but had his mind parked somewhere inside a 6.1-inch screen.

I ran engineering teams for a living. My entire professional identity was built around responsiveness, around keeping fourteen threads going simultaneously, around never letting a message sit unread for more than a few minutes. I was genuinely proud of how fast I could context switch. I thought it was a superpower. I carried that mentality through our front door every evening and never once questioned whether it belonged there.

What I didn’t know, what took me an embarrassingly long time to figure out, was that Judy had been keeping score.

There was this Saturday. She was about five. She’d set herself up at the kitchen table with markers and a big sheet of paper, and she was drawing while narrating the entire scene to me in that wild way kids narrate things. The purple dog lived on a rainbow, and his best friend was a cloud named Martin, and they were both invited to a birthday party on the moon, but the purple dog was nervous because he’d never been to space.

I was saying “wow” and “oh cool” and “then what happened” at what I thought were convincing intervals. My phone was under the table. I was reading a thread about a deployment that had gone sideways.

She stopped talking.

I didn’t register the silence immediately. Fifteen seconds went by, maybe twenty, before I noticed and looked up. She was watching me. Her face was completely neutral. Not upset, not hurt in any obvious way. Just watching me the way you watch someone when you’ve confirmed something you already suspected.

That’s the face I think about. That neutral, knowing face. Five years old and she had already done the math.

Children are paying attention even when, and especially when, you think they aren’t. They don’t need you to announce that your phone is more interesting than they are. They pick it up from the half-second pause before you respond. From the direction your eyes keep drifting. From the way you say “tell me more” while your thumb is still moving.

Sarah, my wife, was the one who made me see it.

Months later, Judy in bed, both of us sitting at the kitchen counter with our laptops open. Sarah said, “She doesn’t ask you to watch anymore.”

Four seconds of silence.

“Have you noticed that?”

I had not.

I sat with that for a while after she said it. I tried to trace it back. When was the last time Judy had grabbed my shirt and said, “Baba, watch”? I could not find the moment. It hadn’t ended. It had evaporated. The way a sound fades out and at some point it’s just gone and you can’t say exactly when it crossed the line from barely there to not there at all.

What I understood, sitting at that counter with my laptop still open and glowing in front of me, was that Judy hadn’t stopped wanting me to watch. She had stopped thinking I would.

That is a different thing entirely, and it is the worst thing I have ever felt.

I did not sleep well that night. I stared at the ceiling and ran through a kind of inventory that I did not enjoy. How many times per day did I pick up my phone? I started counting the next morning and lost track before lunch. I reached for it while the toothbrush was still in my mouth. While the kettle was heating. While walking from the car to the front door, a distance of maybe forty feet, because apparently forty feet of not looking at a screen was too many.

At red lights. During meals. In bed next to Sarah while she told me about her day. That one hit especially hard when I actually forced myself to see it.

I wasn’t hooked on any particular app. It was the checking itself. The constant pull toward somewhere else, someone else’s conversation, someone else’s emergency, someone else’s opinion about something I would forget within the hour.

My phone had turned into a door I walked through a hundred times a day, and every single time I walked through it, I left the person in front of me standing in an empty room.

What changed was not willpower. What changed first was that I let myself feel how much I had already lost.

I thought about all those mornings with Judy eating Cheerios at the counter and telling me about a dream she had and me staring at my phone. All those evenings on the couch where I was physically next to my daughter and mentally sorting through my email. Years of that. Actual years. You cannot retrieve those mornings. They happened once, and I was elsewhere for most of them, and that is permanent.

That’s the part about distraction that nobody warns you about clearly enough. It doesn’t just consume your time. It takes moments that existed once and will never exist again, and you don’t even realize they’ve been taken until much later, when the only thing left is the knowledge that they happened and you weren’t there for them.

Sarah and I had a series of long conversations about what we actually wanted our home to feel like. Not about screen time. We had tried screen time rules before. We’d downloaded tracking apps, set daily limits, made agreements that fell apart within a week because the structure was always about restriction, and restriction gets exhausting. This time we talked about what we were making room for. That was a different question and it led to different answers.

We started with small moves. Phones went into the kitchen drawer during dinner. Then during the hour before bedtime. Then for the first hour on Saturday mornings. We didn’t tell Judy we were cutting back on screens. We told her we were trying to be more here.

She noticed within days. Obviously.

Two weeks in, maybe three, she walked into the living room carrying a book. I was on the couch, no phone, just sitting there, which I realize makes me sound like some kind of relic from 2004, but that’s what it felt like, genuinely disorienting to just sit. She climbed up next to me,  dropped the book in my lap, and started reading out loud.

She didn’t ask if I was paying attention. She could see that I was.

That was the start. Not of a program or a system, but of something more like a set of family habits that we built together. We started taking morning walks and leaving our phones at home. At dinner we’d go around the table: “What was the best part of your day?” We put a list up on the fridge, one column for each of us, with whatever habits we were each working on. Judy held us to ours as much as we held her to hers.

And somewhere in there the question I was asking myself shifted. It went from “How do I spend less time on my phone?” to “What do I want to be present for?” Those questions sound similar, but they are not. The first one is about avoiding something. The second one is about choosing something. The second one actually worked.

Judy is twelve now. She is sharp and funny, and she has started learning to code, which makes me proud and also slightly terrified about what she’ll be able to do in five years. She doesn’t say “Baba, watch” the way she used to.

But she does something I like better.

She sits down next to me and shows me whatever she’s working on. A drawing. A program that won’t run because of a missing bracket. A video she thinks is the funniest thing ever created. And when she looks over to see my reaction, I’m looking back at her.

Not every time. I want to be honest about that. I have not transformed into some perfectly present person. My hand still goes to my pocket. I still feel the pull when I’m bored or stressed or standing in a line with nothing to do.

But I notice it now. I notice it and I choose. Sometimes I choose wrong. But the noticing is the thing. That’s what changed.

If you recognize any of this, if you are reading this with a tight feeling in your chest, I want to say one thing to you. You are not too late. I know it feels that way. I know the guilt is heavy because I carried it for years and it is heavy.

But the people we love give us more chances than we probably deserve. Kids especially. They will let you back in if you show up.

You do not have to rearrange your entire life before bed tonight. You just have to put your phone down the next time someone you love is talking to you, and look at them. Really look. Let whatever is buzzing in your pocket stay unread for sixty seconds.

Sixty seconds. Start there.

The moments you’re scared you already missed? New ones are forming right now. They’re in the next room, in the next conversation, in the next time someone you love glances over at you hoping you’ll already be looking back.

Be looking back.

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Sabry Ali is a dad and husband in Vancouver, Canada. After years in engineering leadership at Life360, Reddit, Microsoft, and Amazon, nearly missing his daughter's childhood inspired him and his wife, Sarah, to co-found Habi (https://habi.app), a habit tracker and screen time app for families. He writes about presence, digital habits, and building meaningful routines at habi.app/insights (https://habi.app/insights/).

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